A little hiatus

Date
17/04/2020 9:26 AM
Playing
Places for Breathing, Revis
Mood
Meh

I've been really busy lately, which is weird, thinking I'd have more time on my hands than I can bear now. I have many plans for this space. I'll be back soon. In the meantime, stay safe lovelies!

The fuck is this for?

Date
28/03/2020 4:37 AM
Playing
Get Right, Jimmy Eat World
Mood
Indifferent

I never thought of my detail oriented nature as more than just an aim to get it all right the first time. Certainly not an obsessive trait, surely.

But fuck, i really am sinking beneath. Whispered words of hope, I hold onto you. Get me higher and higher. To a point where I can see crystal clear, no matter the damage you inflict. I can deal with that, yes i can deal with it all, as long as you allow me to move.

Oh my my my

Date
28/02/2020 1:57 PM
Playing
Exits, Foals
Mood
Excited

It's been a trying past few days. The public auction wrecked my mind. Having strangers in your house bidding on your items when it isn't even your debt sucks, but thank god the boyfriend was there to hold my hand through it. I suppose it could have gone worse... We managed to buy the fridge back but they took the iMac. Not too peeved about that seeing as it doesn't even work. And the people who bought it had no idea. Thank god that's over though. Also got the new dryer delivered yesterday. The door of the old one was broken and got dust and lint everywhere which made doing laundry such a pain in the ass.

Gonna go grab dinner with Dor at 6ish later. I've missed her. Also, Foals tomorrow! Super psyched! Apparently one of the bands dropped out at the last minute and now Foals has an hour and a half's worth of play time. Whoop whoop. I was planning on going alcohol-free for lent, knowing myself I'm probably going to be downing more than my fair share's worth of cocktails tomorrow but I guess I'll just do one of those pay back days, you know?

I've been so caught up in the whirlwind of events this past week that I hadn't even given a second glance to my portfolio. Which I need to complete. Because I gotta start applying for jobs. Because without money, I am dead. Woe is me. I'm gonna sit down next week and force myself to get it done by Wednesday. Focus, Ness, focus.

Well, this is new

Date
24/02/2020 8:25 PM
Playing
Satellite Mind, Metric
Mood
tired

Is it me? Ploughing through sharp and yellowed words of the past I somehow feel obliged with the need to write. I abhor the reason that I might be feeling completely disconnected from an entire source of the human race. Or it might just be my underlying, completely self-loathing need to justify why I need anything at all. I always knew my self-inflicted personas would be the death of me someday.

Need. to. get. my. head. straight.
(and I really, really need a job)